I was talking with a co-worker this week at lunch one day. He asked how Eve was doing and I couldn't help but to start going on and on about how Eve is the best baby and she is so smart and doing so much. I talked about how much she likes rolling and how she will grab anything within her reach.

He responded by saying just wait until she is two and she will be running around ruling the house. He is a nice guy and asks about Eve from time to time, which I appreciate. But in my head I kept saying I should have a two year old. I should know what it is like to have a two year old running around ruling the house. Comments like this really hit me. To the rest of the world, we don't have a two year old but I still feel like we do (or like we should). This is a glimpse into our lives as people who don't fit into the norms of society. There are everyday situations that have the potential to be very upsetting to us, even if it is not obvious since we hide it better now.

It is still so shocking that Lila is not here and it has been almost two years. We miss her so much. - Mike