Throughout our relationship, I have almost always gotten up before Jenny. I can't really think of a time where she got up before I did. Throughout Jenny's pregnancy with Lila, it was always assumed that I would be the one to take care of Lila in the mornings. It was going to be our time together. I probably would have gotten up a little earlier before work so I could spend extra time with Lila. I can picture her all happy and excited waiting to be freed from her crib.

It has been tough, recently, getting up in the mornings, partly because I'm tired and don't want to go to work but also because I want to be spending my mornings with Lila. The weekends are even tougher. I usually sit around reading the paper and can't help but think that Lila should be sitting next to me ripping up the paper as I try to read it. We would eat breakfast together and then I could have taken her for a quick run in our Bob Running stroller. I wake up each day and the shock and pain are still so strong. I don't think that will go away any time soon. - Mike