2/18: Today is the day that Mike was to go back to work. He had taken two weeks off following Lila's birth and agreed to come back on a Monday to have one more weekend at home with us. I am healing really well and seem to have no issues from the csection. I would have felt completely comfortable and fine to take care of Lila on my own. In the short time we had her we had already felt so comfortable and at ease with her and that we knew exactly what she would have needed. We also thought she would have been the most calm baby and slept through the night easily. It is hard to get through days like today when we know how good our life would have been with her here with us and how great the three of us would have been together. -Jenny