One of Lila's Hats

I have been having a hard time this week and I told Mike I wanted to find one of Lila's hats. It was the one she wore the most and was also the smallest on her. According to the tag it says it is for newborns 5-8lbs. Well this should have fit her perfectly since she weighed 6 pounds 4 ounces, but it looked so small on her. Mike calls it her "beanie" hat. 

Mike found the hat among all of Lila's things. When I held it for the first time I noticed the smell it had. It instantly took me back to being with Lila. It is a combination of hospital smell with baby smell and something clean. It was like Lila sent me this gift of a sweet smell to remember her. My baby is still surprising me after almost 9 months.