2/21: I first used Rent the Runway to rent an expensive dress on my 30th birthday. It was an $1000 Badgley Mischka dress and I was so excited to wear it. I thought 30 would be my best year yet. The second time I rented a dress was for our friends wedding over Memorial Day weekend 2012 and the Tibi dress was so pretty I wanted to buy it. We found out ten days later we were pregnant with Lila. Today I wait for the delivery of the third dress I will rent, but there is no anticipation or excitement anymore. I knew I wouldn't want to own a dress that I wore to my baby's memorial, so renting something for this weekend made more sense to me. Nothing matters to me anymore without Lila, a dress or any material thing can't help ease this pain. Things that used to bring me happiness seem meaningless now. -Jenny