Dealing with a tragedy such as Lila's is impossible to describe to anyone who hasn't dealt with it. You don't really know what it feels like how it feels until it happens to you. Jenny and I would have done anything for Lila and were so prepared to take the best care of her. I try not to be a downer but when you read the news and you hear about a 4-year old who shot himself with his father's stolen gun, while the father is passed out on the couch after a cocaine and marijuana binge, it really makes me feel like garbage. Our baby died for no reason and while this guy has his kid for the weekend, he leaves a gun sitting on the table.