As Lila's second birthday approaches, there are some similarities but it definitely feels different. There is still the shock that it has been two years since she was born. But it is starting to feel like it happened to someone else, that the memories that I have are those of someone else. It's a weird and unfamililar feeling.
We are getting farther from Lila but we now have Eve in our lives as well. She has been the best form of therapy for us these past 7 months. She brings us so much happiness each day and we know her so well. I wish that we got to know Lila that well. We knew her the best of anyone and yet we didn't get to know her enough. I can remember the first time I saw her and the first time I held her during her first bath. Earlier I said it feels like losing Lila feels like it happened to someone else and maybe that is partly true. Part of me lives in Lila's memories, frozen in time, and part lives each minute, hour and day with Jenny and Eve. - Mike