Lila would have been 5 months old tomorrow (June 30th). Though since her birthday is on the 31st of January, it makes her month birthdays confusing since they dont all have 31st days, we just assume it would be on the last day of each month. Technically she would be 21 weeks though so that is where it gets tricky since she is sorta already 5 months. She should be here doing what 5 month old babies do. She should be sleeping in her crib right now and we should be sleeping already knowing that she would probably wake us up at 6 am. And yet here we are, alone and longing for a baby that deserved the best and longest life possible and was never given that opportunity.